That his rival should be Knight, whom once upon a time he had adored as a man is very rarely adored by another in modern times, and whom he loved now, added deprecation to sorrow, and cynicism to both.
他的手应该是奈特,从前他作为一个男人崇拜他,在现代很少有人崇拜他,而他现在爱上了他,让悲伤和愤世嫉俗都雪上加霜。