No, I'm not gonna shut the fuck up about it, Tara.

泰拉 我绝对没有扯淡。

And when you sit back, as fucked up as I was, and I had a laundry list, a table like this of what I have to do to become just a human being that can make ends meet, that can make $1, 000 a month.

当你坐下来时，就像我以前那样一团糟，我有一长串清单，一张像这样的表格，上面写着我要做哪些事情，才能维持生计，才能一个月赚到 1000 美元。

I don't know anymore, which is fucked up.

我已经不知道，这真是糟糕透顶。

Foobar means fucked up beyond all recognition.

Foobar 意指糟糕到无法辨认的地步。

He won't shut the fuck up about this.

他对此喋喋不休。

Yeah, he's also kind of fucking up the distinction between technically true and meaningfully true.

是的，他也有些混淆技术上真与质上真之间的区。

So you're not gonna go in compromised, and it's the leg that's already fucked up.

所以你不会带着劣势去的，而且那条腿本来就受伤。

All you can do in this situation is, unfortunately, hope that he fucks up.

在这种情况下，你唯一能做的，不幸的是，就是希望他搞。

Whatever you write, no matter how fucked up, it's going in the book.

无论你写什么，无论多么糟糕，都会被收录进书里。

Yeah, Bob, we only get people to shut the fuck up about politics, huh?

是的，鲍勃，我们只能让人闭嘴不谈政治，对吧？

Um, I remember someone calling it made in abyss, but not as fucked up.

嗯，我记得有人叫它《Made in Abyss》，但没有那么扭曲。

Wouldn't it have just been, man, what if Y2K just fucked everything up?

那多有意思啊，伙计，要是千年虫真的把一切都搞，多好。

Maybe it's all fucked up by a lot of noise and misinformation.

也许这一切都被大量的噪音和错误信息搞。

And then it completely fucked up again, at least in my opinion.

然后它又完全搞，至少在我看来是这样。

Man, really, like, Niggas so fucked up, bro.

兄弟，真的，就像，黑鬼们太乱套，老兄。

And I think he's gonna be okay because I think, what I've just told him over and over again, is you fucked up, you gotta take accountability, and as long as you keep doing that, I think it's gonna be okay.

我觉得他会没事的，因为我一直告诉他，你搞， 你得承担责任，只要你继续这样做，我觉得就会没事的。

I had no articulation to say Why I don't know I just this is creepy So I presented as a compliment and we're taught to believe that that's a compliment, you know, like it's it's fucked up Yeah, like immediate fetishization.

我当时不知道怎么表达为什么我觉得这很令人毛骨悚然。 所以我把它当成赞美来回应， 而且我们从小就被教导认为那是赞美，你知道吗？ 就像… … 这太扭曲。是的，就像是立刻就被物化。

Like, obviously this is affecting your life because it's emotional and she fucked you up, but, like, it's one thing to have heartbreak and another thing for it to, like, bleed into other aspects of your life, right?

显然，这件事正在影响你的生活，因为它涉及情感，而且她确伤害你，但心碎是一回事，让它影响到生活的其他方面则是另一回事，对吧？

And one of Remick's – I mean, it is a self-important sort of narcissistic worry that he has, but he's like, if I fuck this up, No film studio will ever make a movie on film again.

而雷米克的一个担忧——我是说， 这是他那种自负且自恋的忧虑，但他认为，如果我把这事搞， 那将意味着再也不会有电影制片厂愿意用胶片拍摄电影。

I mean, there's, there's his side where he says that, uh, he quote unquote fucked up, but at the same point, um, he wasn't doing anything, um, malicious or he had no criminal intent.

我的意思是， 有，有他的一面，他说，呃，他引用不引用的话搞，但同时，嗯，他没有做任何事情， 嗯，恶意的，或者他没有犯罪意图。