Because if you don't engage with the question first, if you just go straight and try to read the answer and say like, ah, you know, I know that now, then that's just deceiving yourself. -Yeah.
There is no self-transcendence, which is a form of self-correction, unless there is a deep, and I don't just mean propositional, I mean a deep, Ownership and responsibility to one's capacity for self-deception.
In other words, we can trick ourselves out of our irrational disgust by doing irrational things like letting recycled water sit in tank for a while before we drink it.
Love has a way of cheating itself consciously, like a child who plays at solitary hide-and-seek; it is pleased with assurances that it all the while disbelieves.