I felt, had Nabokov wanted it abridged, he would have written it shorter, and I suggested to his son Dmitri that he might insist we record it as written.
The asterisk is often used in writing to show that there is a comment at the bottom of the page or that something has been omited. He added an asterisk to the first page.
But for those who are interested — I did release an uncut version of this video on Nebula that does contain a more uncompromising vision of the kind of scene I had in mind.
Now, if you don't know my story, here is the abridged version: My husband Aaron, died of brain cancer right after I had a miscarriage and after my dad died of cancer.