It could have been some sort of a malformed hand or limb or a hair lip or something like that.

那可能是一种畸形的手或肢体，或是兔唇之类的情况。

So what kept me going was one day I asked my brother, I know, I have a deformed hand but I am tired of looking at these white walls in the hospital and wearing this white scraps.

所我坚持下去的是有一天我问我哥哥， 我知道我的手畸形了，但我厌倦了看着医院里的这些白墙， 穿着这些白色的破布。