It finally feels like I am nearing the end of my pregnancy, only a few months to go.
And I have naturally been pretty tired and increasingly out of breath.
So today I decided to cheer myself up a bit by putting a little extra time into getting dressed, brushing my hair, putting on some jewelry and showing myself some care, which is easy to forget to do.
When I first realized I was going to have a baby, I read a book about motherhood that described the process as a radical act of surrender and acceptance, letting your body and mind surrender to a completely new experience.
I think that whenever we're facing times of change or trying to change ourselves in some way, it can be so freeing to take account of what you can control and surrendering to the rest.
In a world where so many of us are habitual warriors including myself, we can feel fearful of stepping into the unknown and really leaning into the mysteries of life can be the hardest thing to let go and yet, with practice a quiet peace begins to brew that slowly takes over and makes you wonder how you ever tolerated living any other way.
As my body has begun to feel heavy and I'm certainly not as mobile as I used to be, I've been home a bit more, which has motivated me to take on the project of simplifying my home and preparation for a new era, using this chance to move things about and do a bit of redecorating for spring.
Luke and I have been trying to downsize, declutter and simplify mostly budget wise.
But I think it also helps to do it physically as well.
I find that when I simplify my space, especially as like a little spring cleaning, I feel like it's also spring cleaning my mind a little bit.
